If you buy a DVD and decide not to watch it, it does not change how the movie begins or ends.
It is already written and produced. Ignorance will not alter the ending either.
Same goes for the Bible. We are simply going through the motions of a story already written. Jesus has won. Satan is defeated. King Jesus forever.
In the meantime, we have the choice to either honour or dishonour God. To choose to live for God or condemn ourselves by our choices. We first condemn ourselves by rejecting God through sin and ignoring the Holy Spirit’s attempt to draw us to repentance and back to God.
God is good.
I repeat, God is GOOD. He is faithful even when we are faithless. This is His nature and He cannot deny who He is (2 Timothy 2:13). That means no matter what you’ve done or failed to do, if you return to God with your whole heart, He is ready, willing and able to not only take you back but to help you clean the mess you’ve made. Because, let’s be honest, sin is messy. It messes with our mind, our heart, our spirit, our relationships, our life!
Things eventually fall out of place (and apart) when they are not in line with the Will and desire of God.
So don’t ignore that feeling that tells you something is not right. Spend time with God and in His Word so you can discern what is and is not of God. Ask Him to reveal the truth to you.
Returning to God means He can restore. Often, God needs to tear down everything you’ve built up so He can make way for the grand plans He has for your life (which are way better then where you were going with it anyway!). So be patient, after you have suffered a little while, God will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast (1 Peter 5:10).
God is faithful and He will help you work through every struggle. So, when you fall short of God’s glory, dust yourself off and keep trying. The Kingdom of Heaven is near so work with God to prepare yourself. If we are not with God, we are against Him. The Battle against Evil has already been won. Our job is make sure we are on the winning side because the ending that was written from the beginning will come to pass and for the Children of God, the end is just the beginning.
You are called to be a child of the Most High God. Give the Lord some praise!